Reality....just setting in...

We are so excited to be back to Haiti. So excited in fact, that we could not wait even one more day to get to that orphanage....so Rodney & Cathy humored us and took us to the orphanage before we went to the guest house to sleep. It was just a quick stop, but we just had too....

My heart had been craving for those little arms of Moises to be around my neck and to be hugging him so tightly...it was a precious, precious hug. We also could not wait to see the "melt your heart" smiles of Judely and Kentia. We were so excited to just be able to be with them again.

Today was a day of just loving on kids. We played bubbles, raced cars, gave new outfits, took photos, played duck duck goose, and gave about a gazillion hugs and kisses....what more could we ask for!

The boys started working on a massive playground set for the kids and dad started wiring for the electricity for the orphanage. It is definitely not a "quick weekend project from Lowes" and OSHA probably would not be pleased ---but hey, it is getting done : )

My mom is like the queen around here! She brought bubbles, snack packs for each day, and plants for the kids to work to plant and grow something....they love her. It has been so much fun watching my mom and dad meet their grandchildren for the first time!!! They are smitten.

While I am on this topic, I am going to ramble for a second...bear with me as I get through these jumbled thoughts...

We are meeting with the judge Monday morning at 9am about the adoptions of our children (and Kristin & Todd, and Mike & Lydia). I am begging you that you will pray with us about this meeting that God will make it very clear about what our next steps are to be.

Now for the rambling....since arriving down here--I think I am really starting to get nervous about reality. Let me state up front, that I trust God for His plan for our lives...I know what He says is best.....now, let me tell you the human side---I AM SCARED TO DEATH!!!! For a while, this has been talk, talk, paperwork, talk, more paperwork, talk and then tons of paperwork. Now that reality is staring me square in the eyes, I almost don't know what to do with it.

I realize that God has lead us to this point, and I believe that He will provide, He has opened miraculous doors and literally done the impossible---and now I feel like I am second guessing. Maybe it is the sun; maybe it is lack of sleep; maybe it is hormones; however, I am probably more accurate if I say that it is just my rotten sinful flesh! I panicked today as I was holding precious Moises in my arms. He was singing me "I have decided to follow Jesus" (in English by the way!) and I just started crying. My head keeps saying..."how will you ever know how to raise these children?" I realize that the answer is just to trust that God will give me the ability....just somehow today that answer hasn't made it way back up to my brain!!!

I want so much for these children to be where God wants them. I want them to grow up to know the Lord, to give Him their hearts at a young age and then have them serve Him wherever He chooses to take them....I think just hearing him sing that song of deciding to follow Jesus struck a huge heart chord with me because my heart is aching for them to do that too.

Our hearts are still smitten with "brown babies"...and I pretty sure mom and dad are too : )
 
Still makes me crazy to think that people could still object to adoptions of these precious children...one trip down here, and I promise, your hearts will change. If it doesn't, pretty certain that is not the only heart issue you have : ) God loves these babies equally as much and has just as big of a plan for their lives as He does everyone else....we are just so privileged to be a part of this plan.

Tomorrow is another day loving on kids....hopefully my head will be caught up and we will be back on "stable ground" with the emotions.....anyone know of where I can get the "how to be a perfect parent so you won't screw up your kids lives forever" manual??? Never realized how important those verses are in Proverbs....